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When you love someone so much..

you have to give the best for him..

even it means staying away from him..

i know it’s not right for me to love him

he was a brother, a comrade, a friend..

someone who knows me better than anyone else

a man who can make me laugh out loud..

a man I never thought I'd fall inlove with..

its been 4 long years, and it feels like forever..

and he had never dared leave me

.not because my dear to him

its because I'm the only friend he entrusted his life with…

Now, after finally admitting to myself that I’m inlove..

it also made me realize that I did the worst thing I could ever done..

this is the point that even our deepest friendship can’t help..

this is also the point that the tendency of letting him go is at stake.

but what is the right thing??if falling inlove with him is foolish,

why does it felt so great whenever I lean on him??

whenever I hold him close to me..??

if those things were wrong,what's right then???

I have never felt such joy everytime I watch him sleep..

I never felt such completeness everytime he's beside me..

but I also never felt such pain,with the thought

that he can never love me more than what he used to..

I ask him for time and space..and he silently nodded..

is it because he was also tired of understanding my shortcomings??

is it because he has grown tired of me being around him all the time..?

I know I can never bring back what we had in the past..

but I can make it more better, if he let me enter his life..

I am not perfect..

I am not everybody's dream girl..

I'm not so special..

but I have a pure heart..

 a heart I know that will never leave him..

that will understand and accept all his imperfections..

I am someone who doesn’t only fall inlove..

but I'm someone who gives it all when inlove..

and I'm someone who intend to stay longer than his life takes..

I wish he sees me that way..

I don’t know if I could ever love someone again..

cause this is the best of me..

and I can never let it out again..

for I only does it once with someone I'm perfectly sure

I wanted to be with till my very last breath….