i hate being left behind!!!

"i hate being left behind!!!"

its something that most of us agrees. Its making you feel unwanted. It makes you feel unlove, it felt like you were not valued by someone you valued so much. Its a weakness of some. But for me who always experience that feeling, it is my gateway to give myself some credit. To give attention to myself. Although it felt really painful, it helps me realize a lot of things, and also regret some. It felt empty being alone.

 How will you make yourself believe that its okay being alone, when you know there are billions of people around the world and still there's no who's meant to be beside you. Ironic??YES!!..that's my life..im living it for more than 2 decades now. Ive met a lot, but they just come and go. No one stays, no one cares.
 I guess i shouldn't let my self get so hooked up in one specific person, maybe i should just treat them like they were just passing by and maybe i wont feel like im being left behind.